hey yo!

hey,its been awhile since the last time i was blogging. things get a lil bit crazy here. i was kind of lost control over myself. i dunno why but still try to figure things out and try to find what is my hidden ability. the job im holding now kind of brings a pressure to me. but thats not a lot, and still i can take care of it. only 1 things i hope, that is i can take care my future department in that new branch. i will hope so and i try hard. or maybe not that hard enough. <-seems that i dont have a confindence. i mean the level is still doubtful to myself. i still try to find how i will overcome this kind of problem..God please show me the way and I am very sorry for keeps forgetting about u God. I hope that u will forgive me and my sins..

Maybe i stay at Puchong just for a couple of weeks from now and after that the order for me to transfer to the new branch will be announce. Im just hoping the best for myself. My heart keep asking. Can i do this kind of job. When i ask people. they say to me that something was so called hidden ability that we all didnt know and only know that this kind of thing when that situation and ourself have that chemistry. i just want things to be natural. thats all.

for so many months left already, i just can't believe that i was here and still alive and strongs. i even make my own songs already. the things that i dreams to do and always wanted to do. i dunno either the songs is great or what. but i dont care. atleast, the songs i've made sounds great. the songs called "a chance to live". i wrote that songs a couple weeks ago, i mean last month. its about saving someone else life through a difficult time and something about human being emotion generally.

tomorrow i will go to my HQ workplace where they're needed me to have SAP Training. Hopefully, it will be all gone smoothly. Amen. Thanks Lord Jesus Christ. I hope that u will always take care my family. Amen again..

one of my favorite anime. i just read it online. mangareader.net. Bleach! Kurosaki Ichigo..i didnt read it about 1 months already. hope to have some free time so i can read this manga.

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hey yo!
its been 1 month plus already I've been at Puchong, Selangor. Thanks God for making something called miracle to happen to my life. Coz I've been in a difficult time before. After reading some of my previous blog, I just realize that sometimes it was good to had a bad time in our life. A lesson will be learned and we will make a decision based on what will ever happen in our past. Now, not to say that I have a great life but much better than before. I really appreciate it that I make things this far. I need to be more organised in my life, because when it comes to money matter, I need to be more careful because I don't want any waste of money and time occur in my life. So, I really need to make a plan every end of the month or to be more specific every fucking salary time. For sure, around 10-12% will be allocate to my family. They really need my help and I really want to help them in money problems. I know I was in very poor family, now that I have kind of a good job, so it will be not a problem to help them. Hopefully, this will really make my family liability become more less. I hope Daniel also can help, my brother also working now and probably he will try to help.

This coming April 2012, 29 will be Avenged Sevenfold concert at Sunway Lagoon and I really want to go to this concert as this was once a lifetime opportunity. I just hope that nothing will be happen on the time this concert will be held. One more thing about the entrance fee. Its kind of expensive about RM200++ for the front row. But it was once in a lifetime. They maybe not coming to Malaysia again. So, I think its kind of worth it.

End of this February month around 6 days left, hopefully everything will be just fine. Im glad, very glad actually to have this kind of work after all that I've been through. Even though, I need to be so far away from my family. Only one wish that i need that is all my family was in a good health and good mental and physical. Thanks God, I really appreciate all that You have give to me. All I need to do is to maintain all the things and make it consistent. Miracle do happen but it takes time, until we'll realize it.

big city huh?! yes it is. Big city, high standard living TOO!

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i just want to say. its time to earn some money and make money from the internet. i try and i will. hope it will go smoothly. hope it will be going well..

i didnt post nothing on January!

i didnt post nothing on the month of January 2012. no im not busy. maybe i really forget to post something or maybe i just want to ignore everthing about blogging. now im at Puchong, Selangor. A place where i never been before. I've been put on training with Popular Book Co for one year here and maybe be place at Kuching again if my performance was satisfying the Company. I hope so. Here? the place is just ok. I live at 12th floor and thats mean I live in the apartment. At first  I was one room with this guy name Amir from Kelantan but he's left just a couple day after that because being place at his own hometown Kota Bahru. What that makes me wonder, why other like Amir and Betty going through a training for just 3 or 4 months and then send back to their own location and why me need to go for a training for one year? its not that I didnt like this place. if they ask me if i like it or not maybe i will rate it 50/50. because as u can see this place have everything. what i mean that is everything almost perfect here, only that foods is expensive, but what do i expect from a big city like this. it beats kuching and miri if compare from the infrastructure manner. i was like a sakai before this when arriving here. it was the first time i see 4 road in one highway. in sarawak, u only can see 2 or 3 places with the highway this big. maybe at the serian area i guess. i need to survive by myself. i guess this is growing up. living by myself and try to survive in my own way. im the luckiest if i must say. all the expense going to this peninsular of malaysia is supported by Popular. Thanks for them and besides that i also want to say Cibai Popular because making my salary so late to receive. maybe by tomorrow i hope. so far the life is good. over the rate of 100, i maybe say that my life going well for like 60%. yes, 60%.

now that i have been work for a bookstore, my routine would be all books on my working place. all i see is book everywhere and anywhere inside the workplace. but nevermind, its look like im starting to like a book. maybe i will try to finish one book name eat pray love written by elizabeth something. i still dont remember the name. and i would like to try to fininsh read that book.

maybe i should say this also. or maybe i should not. or maybe some other time. i dont really like blogging because im very lazy person in the world. i try to be hardworking and not that i didnt try. i owez try to be, but u now. im just a human that need a little rest and peace of mind. at my work place, all that i hear, people chatting all day long and i become a little bit paranoia. damnit! heard a kids shouting and screaming makes me want to hit them in the face if that makes me feels good.

its valentine month. fuck valentine because im single and no one will like me. or maybe some of them are liking me and maybe i didnt notice or just that i pretending that they do didnt like me. so whatever ok..

i've been single for many months already so wtf. no one cares about it and i dont care also. let the love comes by itself. maybe that for good. does love come by itself or it needs to be found. i just give all in the hands of God to make decision.

thats all for now. i want to watch movie or taking a nap after this. so goodbye and see myself again. i really like talking with myself. its feels good and yet crazy. bwahahaha...

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Xmas just around the corner. It was 4 days left. But for me this year will be a lonely Xmas or else around will a miracle happen. Im hoping so, but anyway Happy Xmas Everyone and Happy New Year.

Last 19 December I was attending an interview at Tun Jugah Kuching which one of the famous bookstore Popular Bookshop was located. Ms. Perrin who are responsible for interviewing me look very nice and kind. The interview was going smoothly and I really hope to get the job as  Retail Trainee even though it was in K.L. Im not afraid to accept this challenges if I was the one who being choose by them. Im still young and have the energy but kind of lazy will go to K.L to work there if was giving this opportunity of a lifetime. Praise to the Lord Almighty that I will get this job. Thanks Lord for blessing my life. I Love u the most Jesus Christ and Almighty Father. Halleluyah!